Hello September

There's something about that first day of September that has a certain feeling. Maybe it's me still clinging onto that 'back to school' feeling, but I woke up on Tuesday morning, looked out of the window, and something felt different.

It's funny really, because the whole of August can pass with only murmurings of 'how is is August already?', yet one day into September and things seem to change. And no, not just because it means my A/W shopping can burst into full swing. 

July and August ended up all being a bit of a blur. For the most part, I had a nice couple of months. I got see a lot more of my best friends, headed up to Bristol (and was fascinated by a pub serving two for Β£6 cocktails, that's Β£3 each, that's magic)! We swung though trees GoApe style, and did a lot of dancing to 90s music. 

We said goodbye to summer dresses as Disney characters, and there's something incredibly satisfying about a group of so called 'adults' sat around a garden bench dressed as everything from Rapunzel (yep, me, what a surprise) to Peter Pan's shadow. 

I've uhmmed and ahhed over whether to share this next part. I'm not the best at discussing feelings, even with my closest friends but midway through August, my boyfriend and I broke up.

I took it badly. Or a lot worse than I ever expected I would anyway. 

I'm not sure how you're supposed to deal with a break up, especially when that person has been a part of your life for almost six years. So far I've booked a holiday to Barcelona and listened to all the Taylor Swift songs I had previously overlooked. I have a new found appreciation for 'I Almost Do', even if it does turn me into a blubbering mess every time.

In some ways it's scary putting it into writing. I put off telling my friends, because the more people you tell, the more real it feels. The more real it feels, the more it hits home that this your life now. But maybe that's a good thing, and the sooner I can stop pretending it's just something I'm imagining, the better. 

I know we're doing the right thing and I know I'll be fine. I'm just not right now.

So, that's what I've been up to the past couple of months. I'm looking forward to September, if not only so I can start wearing my shiny new boots. I like you Autumn, you can stay.

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