Like most end of year summaries, I'm going to start of with the generic 'my has this year flown by quickly' speech. Because it has and I can't believe I'm nearing the end of my One Line a Day diary. I'm not one for resolutions, but my year has been so up and down, that it might be time for a little reflection.
I started the year wanting something new and different. I was fed up of my job, bored and restless. I felt like I wasn't doing enough to push myself in the direction I wanted. The trouble was, I realise now, that I didn't even know what that direction was.
I spent the first 3 months of the year travelling from Bournemouth to Bristol, working full time hours, interning part-time and not really allowing any time for myself. As a result of this, when Spring rolled around, I was exhausted.
I'd just spent a good few months working really hard, yet spent most of the warmer months still feeling like I wasn't doing enough. If I'm honest, my summer was all a bit of a blur. I went on a couple of lovely holidays, some not nice things happened and I got increasingly fed up and stressed at work.
I knew I was ready for a change, and suddenly I found myself seriously job searching. I had quite a few interviews, met some really nice people, and thought I'd discovered what I wanted. Suddenly I was handing in my notice at work, planning a move to London and starting a new job. Then I decided to leave.
I don't regret taking the job, and I certainly do not regret leaving my old job. I met some fantastic people during my time interning, I got to work for a lovely company and if I can take anything away from it, I've at least worked out what I don't want.
It's as though I've spent most of my 2014 not feeling good enough, thinking I wasn't doing enough, and ultimately believing I should be going somewhere. It was't until I sat down with my mum, and she pointed out all the good things I'd achieved, that it really put it into perspective for me. So after all that rambling, without trying to sound big-headed, I want to celebrate some of the things I have done this year.
I've done things way out of my comfort zone. I've applied for internships in parts of the country I don't even live in. I've worked incredibly hard. Somehow I've managed to get interviews and, although it turned out not to be right for me, land a great job. Things may not have worked out for me, but at least I tried.
I'm now seeing in the end of 2014 at home and about to start searching for a job. For someone who loves working, I'm just a little terrified. I have decided however, that I need to be a little nicer to myself and give myself more credit for the things I have done. Here's hoping I can do that for 2015.
I'd like to leave it with a song that I really really love at the moment. It's not often that a song can encompass how I'm feeling, but this did it.